Hijrah the Rebel Girl
Don't be sad

There is something more bitter than bile...Reality.!

But this sentence only applies to people who are not grateful..!

Cuddled by solitude, soothed by crying and accompanied by emptiness. Did you swallow the bird? Yes.he..! the girl crying down there. How sad... – NVS31.

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I miss looking ahead with her flat eyes. His tears should not fall because of the sakta, every second he said if he was not a killer, every minute also he wiped the trail of tears that would fall. He hugged his body tightly. Hugged himself in a crowd that looked at him strangely.

It was strange, because he was soaking wet, water even dripped under his clothes. The bloody temple had already reached his eyes. There are some who ask him, what is with him but again and again miss being in the phase of his defense. Where when he knew that he had the deadly disease, now he repeated those seconds. Where he is unaware of his life. He is not aware of the surrounding.

There is nothing but empty and empty now. It's all gone downstairs by the questions in his brain. He didn't even realize how many times he hit other people or fell because he tripped on his own clothes. He chuckles sadly and cries.

Tinnnnn...!!

Missing silence with a blank look was not even aware when a big bus drove towards him who was still walking when there was a car, he did not realize if he crossed the road in the opposite direction. He closed his eyes tightly where he heard the tussle, he felt his body floating in the air with his stomach being embraced by someone. He fell into someone's arms. It made him quiet for a moment.

“You Missed right? Why do you miss? are you okay?!!” The question in the city was overflowing with longing with his soaring anxiety. He patted the cheek of Miss whose eyes closed it with a feeling of dread.

Missing to open his eyes, in front of him there is a figure that he very familiar to make him chuckle nanar.” Why would you help me? Why?!” his tan hoarsely made the figure stunned by looking at Miss Nanar.

“Why.!!” The hard Missing slag made the surrounding people stare at the strange Miss. As if staring at a madman, staring at a madman. How not, someone who helped him was even yelled at, it is not sane people.

“Rindu you why? What was? My same story.. Why can you believe it? You almost died know not if I did not help you as soon as earlier.” His words very anxiously looked at Miss who was looking at him pushyly. Missing Eyes even bleed, “Your spies why? Kam-“

“Don't fuck me..!! “Rindu chuckled with water or a withered. “You should have let me get hit by a car. That I may die there and no longer feel the world. I'm not strong. I want to die.” Said Miss hugging her own head. He even cried with his breath going up and down.

“Hey.. come with me.. wangan like this Miss.” The figure looked around who looked at them in wonder, as if staring at a madman alone made him intend to bring Miss far from there alone. He took Miss away from the crowd and headed for his car parked in one of the restaurants there.

He was having lunch because he did not eat breakfast earlier.. he saw Miss who walked on the side of the road with a pushy gaze and also hit some people making him bigung and also kepo. He thought Missing why made him approach Missing and finish it as soon as possible.

But when he guessed Miss. he saw Miss who walked with a blank look was still walking straight when it should turn because it was a crossroad, so he quickly chased Miss. if only he had not been fast, it would have been Missing now to the hospital. Especially when the green light was coming from the west. I've already.everything seems to be a coincidence. But it was God's plan.

Sometimes the person who looks the strongest, the coldest and the toughest is the most fragile. The sickest person and the one who does not easily control his grief. Haha. there are also those who are unable to withstand their sadness because they are tired. akh. sudhalay.

Miss silence when her hand is pulled towards the parked car at the end. Where the black BMW car there is real emblazoned. He sat beside the figure who helped him with a blank look. Again and again he had no life at this time. Arga's words surrounded his head. Especially where Mise is crazy. Mise miscarried, Reno made her an impingement until Arga told her it was a killer. And it happened again until now and it's been twice.

Killing an innocent child makes him hold his head, remembering where the mise he hit in the stomach and fell on the floor with a bloody leg, he also heard where Mise said he was a murderer.. the cheers on his head and his prayers made him shake and cover his head. “Gue is not a killer..! I'm not a killer..!! I'm not a murderer and it's not my fault... Go awayl.. I'm not a killer.!!” He shouted loudly while hitting the dashboard of the car that took him away.

The figure who helped Miss was looking at Miss with a worried look.” Hey Rin.. you why... calm-tennag..!!” He said worriedly. He looked at Miss and the road with a confused look

Longs to keep kekeh dodging with his fast and hit his own head as usual.”.I'm not a killer..!! stop calling me killer..!!” His loud screams hitting the dashboard of the car hard with his inner power made his hands bleed. He hit it wrong he hit a small box that was filled with cat porcelain to make the box break and stick it in his hand. Draining a lot of blood made the figure beside Rindu turn his back in shock.

“Rindu stop hurting yourself.. stop I say..!!” Shouted the figure beside Miss with a tight hand miss who drained the blood. He stopped his car on the edge of the fast road and also stared hard Miss. Missing even still did not listen to his words made him hit Miss cheeks slowly to realize it. Missing still also unconsciously made him afraid and worried.

Just this time he was so deep that he quickly picked up the mineral next to his wheel. Then he took the drugs in the back, he opened the side door of his car and also brought Miss to follow him. I miss being quiet with my bleeding hands.

The figure brings Miss to a shady seat because of the foliage, cold and cool. here is quite quiet because this is in a park that is no longer inhabited. Not far from there there is a green lake making it sit facing the lake and park.

“This is your hand Miss.!” His words gently took Miss's hand and also opened the black Miss's hand. He opened the sarum the other hand was quite painful because of the flesh Miss still there is glass that stuck, and again the skin is whitened. It looks like the thin fingers of Miss who is also long it makes him sigh

He misses me because he doesn't know what to do. He repeatedly shed the tears that had been mixed with blood. It poignant? Of course, but he did not feel the material makes Miss silent. The figure next to him miss busy cleaning wounds Miss using minerals and alcohol. “Should be sewn Miss.. This is enough in loh.. want to go to the house skait not?” tanyanya looked at Rindu but Rindu remained a burning statue she sighed.

Longs to stay seated without grimacing in the least bit was the figure to clean and also sew the hands Miss. yes.he had the tool because Miss who did not respond made bia do it there. He used some clean cloth and tysu to clean up the blood that was still falling. Miraculously miss not crying or grimacing at all. Missing already Missing life made that figure look at Miss very worried

After he sacrificed Miss's hand made him pat Miss's shoulder.” Miss... You are aware right? Hello..!!”He said with worry. Because misses still do not respond. He was silent with eyes staring blankly.

par..

Due to his worry being made he slapped his face Miss was quite strong.

Plak.. then miss conscious and look at him with a question. There is a sense of pity on its foundation but because Miss who is like a crazy person makes him more afraid. He looked at Rndu with a hard to interpret gaze.” Sorry.. are you okay?” Ask me nervously.

The miss who got the slap looked at the figure in front of him with a ruckus, simultaneously with tears falling. He looked at his bandaged hands making him like thejavu about this. yes..he used to be like this when he knew he was sick with cancer right? And now he was again stressed because the fact that was more painful made him cry again because it did not hold back his sadness.

“Eg eh.. kok you cry.. don't cry Miss... You why?!” He shook his hands longing.it was like he was hugging Miss. But because the boundaries made him look at Miss only. But not being able to look at Miss like that made her stroke the head of Miss and calm her trembling shoulders.

“Sick? Kan already I said Miss. You should not cry too long. mat is good with your health.” His words megelus pungung Rindulah Missing coughed and held his chest. Yes. he's doctor Rey.. doctor who handles the disease Misses at this time. “pull deep breath in. Then remove... pull again.. continue to loosen again. you must be calm yes....” Instructions on Missing.

With his will he obeyed what was told and instructed by doctor Rey for holding tightness in his chest. When it is calm “ Istighfar Rindu. said astahgfirlahhalazim... astaghfirullahall’azim.” His words to Rindu make Rindu beristighfar and several times mention the name Allaj swt. Doctor Rey continues to calm Miss using her sholawat makes Missing much calmer and also much more comfortable.

One of the prayers of tranquilizers readsAllahumma la sahla illa ma ja’ahahu sahla wa anta taj’alul hazna iza syi’a sahla which means “Oh my Lord, there is no ease except what You make easy and what is difficult You can make easy when You want it”.

The heart is the most important part of man. In Arabic, the liver is referred to as qolbu. In terms of language, qolbu has two meanings, namely something that has glory or something that goes back and forth.

He said tranquilizing heart. because the sound of his doctor Rey is very comfortable to hear makes Miss more calm and peaceful.Rey doctor also read some verses to Miss so Missing back to his world. He does not know what the problem is Missing to make Missing this fall and this sick. he does not know. but he does his best to miss.

Prayer for the heart 1



Allahumma inni a’zubika minal hammi wa huzni, wal ajzi, wal kasali, wal bukhli, wal jubni, wal dholaid daini, wa gholabatir rijali

Prayer for the heart 2



Rabbanaa afrigh’ alainaa shabran wa tsabbit aqdaamanaa wanshurnaa ‘alal qoumil kaafiriin

It means : ” O our Lord, bestow patience upon us, and strengthen our stand and help us against the disbelievers”. (Q. S. al Baqarah: 250)

Prayer for the Heart 3

اَللّٰهُمَّ اِنِّىْ اَعُوْذُبِكَ مِنْ جَهْدِالْبَلَاءِ وَدَرْكِ الشَّقَاءِ وَسُوْءِ الْقَضَاءِ و شَمَاتَةِ الْاَعْدَاءِ

Allahumma inni a’uuzubika min jahdil bala’. Wa darkish shaqa’'s. Wa suu il qadhaa’. Wa shamaamatil a’daa’

It means: “Yes Allah, I take refuge in You from meeting suffering, from bad destiny & from success-Sahih Bukhari

The Prayer for the Heart 4

يَا حَيُّ يَا قَيُّوْمُ بِرَحْمَتِكَ أَسْتَغِيْث

Hayyu yaa qayyuumm. Bi rahikika astaghiiths

It means : “O Lord Almighty, O Lord Standing Alone does not need everything, by Your grace I ask for help.” – Hadith Tirmidhi's History

The Prayer for the Heart 5

اللهُمَّ لا سَهْلَ إلا مَا جَعَلتَهُ سَهْلا وَ أنتَ تَجْعَلُ الحزْنَ إذا شِئْتَ سَهْلا

Allahumma la sahla illa ma ja’altahu sahla wa anta taj’alul hazna iza syi’a sahla

It means: “Oh my Lord, there is no ease but what Thou hast made easy and what is difficult Thou canst make easy when Thou wilt desire.” – Sahih Ibn Hibban

The Prayer for the Heart 6

اَللَّهُمَّ اِنِّى اَعُوْذُ بِكَ مِنَ الْهَمِّ وَالْحَزَنِ

وَاَعُوذُ بِكَ مِنَ الْعَجْزِ وَالْكَسَلِ

وَاَعُوذُ بِكَ مِنَ الْجُبْنِ وَالْبُخْلِ

وَاَعُوذُ بِكَ مِنْ غَلَبَةِ الدَّيْنِ وَقَهْرِ الرِّ جَالِ

Allahumma inni a’uuzubika minal hammi wal hazan. wa a’zubika minal ajzi wal kasali, wa a’zubika minal jubni wal bukhli, wa a’zubika min ghalabatid daini wa qahrir rijaal

It means: “Oh Allah, I take refuge in You from sorrow and anxiety, I take refuge from weakness and laziness, and I take refuge in you from cowardice and filial piety, and I take refuge in You from the grip of debt and oppression of people.” – Sahih Bukhari

The Prayer for the Heart 7

لا إلهَ إلا أنتَ سُبْحَانَكَ إِنِّي كُنْتُ مِنَ الظّالِمِيْنَ

Laa ilaaha illa anta subhaanaka inni kuntu minaz zholimin

Meaning: “There is no God but You (yes Allah)! Most Holy of You, Verily I am of those who persecute themselves.” (Q.L. Al-Anbiya verse 87)

Heart Sedating Practice

Maintaining peace of mind in addition to a few prayers, can also do the following practices:

Remembering God

The simplest practice that can be applied first when the heart is not calm is by remembering God.

God is to be worshipped by a creature. When a believer's heart is not calm, then who is he worshiping? If a believer reflects again on who their Lord is, who is the place to return to, and who we should love first, He is the Lord of all nature.

This incident re-dejavu recollected Miss. used to be calmed by Ummi Ira and now he was pacified leh doctor Rey makes him more aware if God is so good to him. He always sent angels without wings to help him stand up and calm down. Help him rise up and remember. This time his tears fell again, but not because of problems but because he felt guilty for the Robnya.. he felt grateful because at least at this time he was not alone and God was now looking at him and helping him.

Miss no longer remember if doctor Rey is not the makhromnya. He is no longer conscious. All he felt now was only comfortable and needed the doctor Rery who rubbed his shoulders. rubbed his head comfortably and whispered the verses of the Qur'an blowing sholawat and made his heart as peaceful as heaven and as wide as the ocean.. as soft as silk and as beautiful as God's promise..

“Trimakaish.” Murmured miss doctor Rey stopped sholawat and he was quite calm. He looked at Rey's doctor, his eyes swollen and narrowed. Even his cornea is no longer visible because his eyes are very narrow and swollen. Maybe it was also because the punch on his face earlier made his face swell.

Doctor Rey grimaced looking at his face Missing like that. Like a puffer fish. Very creepy. “kamu why hmm? Why are you crashing into a gini? My story I. I will listen to everything well.who knows I can provide solutions or input with you. Said people telling stories of problems with others can be a little eased the pain we receive and we hit.” Lebut.

He missed silence with his language. He returned dejavu to Ummi Ira.. Now he needs Ira ummi. But he was quite embarrassed to come when he had problems only. actually all this time he always transferred money to Umi Ira. It's just that he doesn't want to come up with a thousand problems. He didn't want to keep her quiet. After all, he also hesitated to tell Doctor Rey. Actually he was afraid that later Rey doctor would also stay away from him and leave him snedirian. He didn't want that right to happen..

Doker Rey looked at Rindu who was silent bergeut with his thinker was sighing. He confirmed his white shirt. Winding his arm up to the elbow showed his sturdy hand. He looked at the Miss who was bound by the bandage and looked at Miss. “Still sick? Perih?” His question made Miss nod and murmured.

Miss looking at his hands and confused why he could get out of control, until he was unconscious he was injured. Now how to try? Now he himself has a loss.where he just felt this very painful lahgi. akh stupidly you miss his inner.” Little sore..” The sound of longing is even exhausted and disjointed.

Doctor Rey chuckled making Miss look at him with a question mark look. Wh why? Her mutter made doctor Rey stare at Miss.” Your voice is funny. hehe.” His words made Miss just sigh.

Doctor Rey sighed. He cukp grateful because Miss is already a little soft now.” I've heard. Do not be too lamented about the problem said ustads who taught me. later fear God wrath us.. Why do you not surrender to Allah? Surrender because He gave you the trials and handed over the trials to Allah. Allah will help you solve them later.”