Husband's Regret: I'm Not a Little Child
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“Sorry..,” says Nila gently handed over Rendi's wallet.

Nila's gaze was sad and empty, Nila herself still did not understand how to.

Rendi nodded, giving a gentle smile with regret. Rendi did not expect something that she thought was normal, but that hurt Baba's heart.

But Rendi did not want to harvest Nila any more. Rendi knew that behind the spotlight Nila's eyes stored the millions of burdens caused by her, as well as the heartache of what she said first. That's why Rendi relented to let Nila choose Babanya even though Nila had time to hesitate.

Rendi remembered very well how Nila used to be so sweet and obedient, looking at her lovingly the first time she arrived at Bamboo Shadeh, registering and entering the cottage. Then stay at Ummi's house for the first time. It was supposed to be their first night and get acquainted more closely, but since Nila was still a child, Rendi chose to leave for the Capital because she had to work. And from that night Nila obediently became the son of Ummi even without him.

The face was completely different from the current, his eyes were puffy, the hue of roaring on the cheeks he saw last night was gone. His lips were also tightly shut, the sorry word Nila threw also felt very heavy.

Rendi knows all too well because of it. Rendi cannot hold back and add to Nila's pain. Rendi does not want the relationship of a Princess and father will be damaged.

Rendi must prove her true love, the love of an adult who must bring happiness and draw closer to the obedience of the Creator, not lust, vengeance or ambition and full of emotion.

“Mas who are sorry, follow your Babamu. Yes wait. Mas will meet Baba again, let these gifts mas take care of, you pray yes!”

While receiving his wallet, Rendi whispered sincere hope. Hoping Nila still participate skyrocket their love in order to unite with joy without misunderstanding.

Nila just gulped her saliva, no yes or no. Nila only heard it without being able to express the meaning of the sentence, but the sentence Rendi quite calm her down.

Nila then glanced at Bunanya already in the car, not wanting to make trouble, Nila rushed to run, still in her pajamas, carrying dirty clothes and carrying her college bag.

Boldly, Rendi stood up straight, staring at Baba's car leaving the Orange house furiously without saying goodbye.

Orang and Adip apparently also noticed, but they chose not to reward Babanya.

Everyone knows, Baba if you're angry can't be bothered. Even Buna sometimes prefer to stay silent or leave Baba for a moment. If forced to face, like today, Baba will explode even more.

As soon as Baba's car disappeared from view, Rendi lowered her body, crouching down to pick up her card wrapping paper.

“Ehm...,” Adip and Orange Dehem. But once Rendi turned to look Orange directly back in the right, while Adip approached.

“Let Simbok Sir be cleaned, we have breakfast first, come,” said Adip friendly and respectful.

Rendi then smiled turning to his sister-in-law, “No matter what this is finished!” the answer is to take all the collected paper in one hand. Gift wrappers are torn big so easy to take.

Junk directly Rendi put into the barrel, after which Rendi put one by one gift of friends Nila with heart to the cardboard.

Adip then helped her, while taking a glimpse of the contents of her card.

“Bapak really loves Nila?” tanya Adip ventured to invite Rendi to speak from heart to heart.

Rendi sighed not directly answering, her hand was still busy arranging Nila's things with heart.

Adip also understood not to add to his question and chose to wait and return one item which was a beautiful mug to Rendi.

After being neatly arranged, Rendi then looked at Adip inside.

“I don't know more exactly when I love her, what this feeling means, but surely Nila is not who I originally thought she was, she's more mature than I thought she was, and I am interested in him, not only interested, but I am sure to live with him,” replied Rendi.

“Attracted or curious?” tanya Adip again confirmed.

Rendi then smiled hearing Adip's question.

“My age is 33 years old, even older than you right, it's not the time I was curious, I need a companion!” answer Rendi again.

Dropping it now replace the slightly smiling Adip.

“Sorry before, do not mean I doubt the father, or support the father give up. I just want to know what the real problem is from Mr. Rendi's side. Before continuing to struggle with this relationship? Have you thought about the next plan, sorry I mean, you are 33 years and 5 years older than me, while Nila is still struggling, just want to have ktp. Is not considered again. Like the descent plan and so on?” ask Adip again.

Rendi listened to Adip's long question calmly, then turned her smile again to Adip.

“Before I accepted my parents' request 3 years ago, I thought about it?"

"Descendants may be important in life, I have also heard that our religion is happy if we have many descendants, making them caliphs on this earth, but we must also remember. The boy is about his power, right? Children can be exams too. Many married younger than me until now their age beyond me have no children, and vice versa. I'm not questioning that, Nila want to have children immediately or not? We can discuss together how good. Not about the child. When I am I don't know either. My principles, being married to me about vision and mission, about purpose, I feel it's time, I'm getting married. I need a partner now. And I'm sure Nila has it,” replied Rendi no less long.

Adip listened to her nod, apparently Rendi had other principles in terms of life plan. Adip became embarrassed himself, talking about love for them is a bit strange. But Adip was still curious about the mistake that Rendi made.

“If you can know, why are you sure Nila has the right value to be a friend of Mr Rendi?” ask Adip again.

Rendi smiled again and looked around fearing that there was an orange.

“Don't say yes!”

Adip nodded, funny once Mr. Rendj who is usually cold stiff suddenly like a young boy who blushed.

"Yes!"

“Honestly I originally intended to marry her, just because I was sure that my Abah's words were always right, but I still doubt Nila was just a girl mostly even I thought she was weird, subtle or stupid, want her to be married at an early age, I also had time to think of making your wife sick, how does it feel like Orange has a brother-in-law like me? Stupid me?" said Rendi honestly again.

Adip here is a bit jerky. The orange speech turned out to be true.

"What broke all of Mr. Rendi's thoughts?"

"I read the diary,” replied Rendi. “And I'm sure, Abahku is the best!” continued Rendi again steady. For the first time to talk to men about women.

Adip frowned rather in shock, apparently Rendi was a very obedient person to his father, it also seemed that there was no romantic approach that occurred between Nila and Rendi like himself and Orange, as well, only because I read one Diary.

“When did you read that diary?” tanya Adip was still curious.

Rendi is silent, they will fight about two months less, Rendi read about 1 week early they quarreled. “1- 2 months ago, yes a lot of heck is not just that,” replied Rendi again.

Adip nodded, “What does it mean that the story of Orange and Oma is true?” adip asked again now more and more in correcting the mistakes of Rendi.

“Not all true,” replied Rendi.

“Means?” ask Adip.

Rendi then tells how she can try out her question. That day friends Rendi brought the couple, Axel also showed off about to get married again. Rendi was then asked where is your wife? Alone only.

Rendi also replied Yes, “Iya me alone? Why indeed? It doesn't matter on his own, and he enjoys it. Me alone?" kurant is more so.

Rendi's intention was that Rendi where it was still alone, Rendi also could not claim in front of her friends had married betel with a child graduated Junior High School entrusted in the cottage.

For friends of Rendi who studied outside also some non-Muslim religion Rendi and her brother are colossal, silly and complicated.

But for Abah, married betel with a more honorable fiancee married betel. Although they make promises to keep each other out of touch first, they are also LDRs, but if there is communication, or meeting, they are already mutually halal.

They will also keep each other's eyes because both of them are aware of each other there is a partner. And when the education is over they go back to their partner.

“Oh.

“It's about communication, I always refuse my Umm to meet Nila, I'm afraid her release will still stink, um I get angry when I say so, I say, when Ummiku is angry it seems like Nila also heard and misunderstood,” replied Rendi again shyly.

This time Rendi scratched his temple embarrassed, that night Rendi was still prestige also jutek to Nila.

Rendi did not agree or the story of the situation in the cafe, if Rendi admitted not married. Rendi was also not mentally ill Nila. Rendi only asked Nila to accept the fact that they were married because of arranged marriage, do not sue and accuse Nila of demanding the inner right of the wife. But that means Nila is different and hurts her.

“I answered him wrongly, because I thought, he was still too early to ask. I also say it bad, maybe he hurt,” replied Rendi to slow down his words.

“That means right, you hurt Nila and divorced her?”

“Oh no... no, there is no divorce between us. I'm just saying, why are you asking me that? Are you suing me? Funny little boy demands me to behave as a good husband, it means we do not know each other, so I say the centil,” so answered Rendi honestly.

Adip slightly swallowed his saliva turned out that the adult in front of him was not too smart to also treat women. Adip wanted to shake his head and call Rendi stupid, but afraid of offending, Adip just sighed.

Of course Nila was crying, if it was Orange, it must have been angry for three days and three nights.

“Oh that, means it's about communication, huh?” adip concluded.

Rendi nodded too. “What do you think I should do?” tanya Rendi finally asked for help.

Adip silently thought, how to make Baba calm down. “We have to meet Buna first, after that Oma Nurma, new to Baba again,” Adip said.

“Oma Nurma?” asked Rendi while thinking,

Adip nodded.

“Oh yes,” replied Rendi immediately smiled, since the beginning of Rendi came, a person who was so polite and loved Rendi kan Oma Nurma.

“Try Mr. Rendi chat as it is now, about the status of Mr. Rendi and Nila, what Mr. Rendi feels, to him. Usually Oma, more able to understand, and can get to Baba. If Baba has said "no" like before, Adip is equally Orange not dare, sir, this is just Baba coming home unattractive and not finding Dipta means Baba is angry,” said Adip told his idea.

“Oke... Thanks a lot yes, sorry because of me, you guys got angry?” said Rendi pat Adip on the shoulder.

“I can only doain the best, Sir!” answer Adip to be neutral.

Rendi nodded again. “This let it put here yes, maybe Nila want to take!” tata Rendi handed Nila gift.

“Come breakfast first, Sir!” bring Adip.

Rendi saw the clock. “I have a morning lecture there is also a consulant schedule with children, kasian thema, I have breakfast outside, thanks!” answer Rendi pamit.

Adip did not force, Adip understood the word Orange, Rendi did not like to be late to class.

Rendi then left Adip's house and headed straight to the campus.

****

Along the way the car Baba drove was so gripping and silent. Nila entered and sat in the back seat, Baba holding the steering wheel and Buna sitting beside Baba.

Buna really understands, if Baba holds the steering tightly, then notes the focus in front, it means that the contents of his head are raging. Instead of Baba's emotions steering wrong especially Baba is old, Buna better be quiet, while his head thinks.

Every now and then Buna saw Nila from the rear viewpoint, along the road Nila silently gazing into the streets.

Nila herself was confused. Nila had tried to obey Baba, Nila was available to be betrothed, Nila took care of herself and her heart, for Rendi. Nila wished besides her happy parents as well.

Unfortunately Nila is hurt, Nila is obedient to her parents to stay away. Nila also kept her distance from Rendi.

But why when Nila keep the distance, Rendi so good, and why when Rendi became as Nila wanted, Nila also forgave, Baba even Nudu Nila assorted again. Where is Nila confused to stand?

Besides being confused, Nila's heart also cannot be lied to, she felt happy to feel happy with the change of Rendi.

Not long after, they reached Baba's courtyard. Baba stopped the car, they all got off.

The house is deserted, Iya and Iyu have left for school, Amer has also left for the office. Nila saw a big clock in the living room. Nila was panicking, now is the time for college.

Nila so walked quickly wanted to immediately enter the room, shower and prepare for college.

“Nila!” snapped Baba offended.

“Gleg!” Nila became shocked and stopped, Buna was shocked and beristighfar why her husband became so fierce.

“Yes, Ba!” answer Nila.

“Sopan once Baba sits you walk away!”

“Sorry Ba!”

“Sit! Baba wants to talk!” baba's word is firm.

“But Ba, Nila wants to take a shower, Nila is late for college!” replied Nila innocently.

“You quit college!” answer Baba again firmly.

“Gleg...,” Nila immediately limp, even the dirty shirt crackle immediately fell.

“Baba...,” Og Buna also surprised not to think, her husband made a quick decision.

“He will definitely meet again with the man, Baba forbid Nila from going to college!” baba said firmly.

“Tik...,” one tear Nila fell down her cheek, Nila did not expect this cruel Baba. Baba's words broke Nila's heart.

“Do not cry, sit here!” baba said again not caring about Nila's sadness.

Nila stared while wiping her tears. While Buna did not stay silent immediately interrupted.

“Maas, what do you mean Mas Nila can't go to college? What does this have to do with Rendi? Baba's childhood education Nila?” buna asked until finally calling Baba Mas, putting herself to talk as a wife.

“Bby lecture. But Move campus!” baba answered a little more.

“Ba... talked about first well,” said Buna again.

The obedient Nila approached Baba to sit down, but her heart was very stiff.

“No, Nila can't see Rendi anymore, Baba doesn't trust her anymore! Tila's out of that campus!”

“Ba...,” said Nila ventured to talk.

“Do not argue! Many campuses, where do you live? In which city and country? Baba will register now!” baba said again.

Nila clenched her hands, her chest extremely tight. Since childhood, Nila has always tried to be a submissive and sweet child why Baba is this lofty. Nila also ventured to convey her wishes.

“But Ba...Nila wants to stay at the Ba State campus. Nila will obey all Baba's words, but please let Nila stay here, Nila wants to be close to Buna, Baba and the sisters,” said Nila pleading with tears.

Baba silently heard Nila's words.

“Nila SMP is far away Ba, Nila SMA is also far away. Baba wants Nila out of Baba and Buna's life. Does Nila mean nothing to Baba and Buna? Nila does not want any campus except the best campus near Baba and Buna.., Nila does not want to wander again Ba. Baba doesn't want to get close to Nila? Why did Nila feel that Abah and Baba loved Abah more than Nila? Why did Baba always want Nila to go?”