Husband's Regret: I'm Not a Little Child
Abi Yusuf's.

“Why am I happy to hear the story, Brother Amer? Huftt astaghfirulloh, why do I dream of him? Remember now he is not my muhrim anymore” muttered Nila leaning on the door of her room after she closed.

Nila saw the wall clock in her room, it was already night, she did not want to daydream too long because tomorrow had to go back to college. Nila took back the water of wudzu, because as Nila knew it was sunnah.

After that, Nila also laid her body slowly, and closed her eyes. And at that moment, every time Nila closed her eyes, her heart was pounding again, so strong, it continued.

Nila also remembered her dream until she woke up, feeling real.

Like Rendi before, maybe because of too much thought, in the subconscious of Nila was coming Rendi.

Nila dreams of them becoming a loving husband and wife, in Nila's dream, Nila learns with Rendi interspersed with laughter. Just like in class, Rendi guided Nila before Nila faced the test.

“Ya Alloh, please help, for I forget her,” Inner Nila held her chest.

From the beginning Nila had always kept everything she felt herself, so only Alloh and himself knew how strong the pounding in Nila's heart was. Baba Amer Orange none of them understand.

“Hooh,” Nila exhales slowly. “If I used to think about and pray for him is a reward because I am still his wife, now is not we divorced, help my heart not to get lost, Allaah, I can not keep this up, can I without him, can I do it without him, help me reassure him, help me get rid of all my pain?” lirih Nila again held her chest holding something that Nila could not understand.

Can't explain how, the more Nila wants to forget, the more Baba and Amer advised, the stronger Nila also imagined Rendi. Though Nila herself felt upset and sick if she remembered the story of grandmother and all her sacrifices in waiting.

“Sleep Nila... sleep!” nila herself tried to clear her mind. To get rid of all that, Nila's mouth commits us to reciting prayers until Nila falls asleep.

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Somewhere else.

“I'm sure Amer heard what I said, hopefully he understands and doesn't misunderstand!” muttered Rendi while walking with her car keys into the house.

Rendi went straight to the bathroom taking off the clothes she was wearing.

The smell of alcohol and the smell of cigarettes, although Alcohol is expensive, but still smells. Rendi is a doctor, he does not comment or forbid the crater, but Rendi does not like. Even when he arrived at the house Rendi immediately took a shower.

Before leaving to fulfill Axel's sudden call, actually Rendi also had a bath and prayers Isya. But because the teacher was the same, like Nila, before going to bed, Rendi cleaned herself, berwudzu, took the prayer sunnah and took the letter Al Mulk.

That is actually a tip from Ummi so that we remain always in the protection of Allah as well as provision when we will have left this mortal world. When we close our eyes to sleep, we also never know, God will wake him in what circumstances? That is why Nila and Rendi are taught to get used to, worship the sunnah before going to bed.

However, during this time Rendi many holes because he was busy with his career and ambitions. He had just recently, after he had gotten into trouble, felt pain scolded and shunned all his family. Rendi again remembered the messages of Ummi, Rendi became lonely and wanted to return to be a good child Ummi.

And now, on the prayer mat in his room, Rendi offered the same prayer.

“I realize my mistake huh Alloh, I realize my stupidity, I was wrong, please forgive me?” lirih Rendi sincerely realized his mistake.

Rendi is also the only boy who became proud and hopeful but even he who left home and away from parents. Also he who continues to make Abi and Umminya think and worry a lot.

“At least allow me to make Ummi and Abi happy, please forgive me?” lirih Rendi again suddenly his heart ached imagining things far away. This time, Rendi also steadily wanted to end her bachelor period.

“This feeling is getting stronger all the time, if this is naafsu, please help scrape. But if this is a gift from you, make it easy, huh Alloh?I tried to apologize to Nila. If Nila is not my soul mate, I am sincere, but help me forget her without any grudges and animosity, improve our relationship, let me re-knit a good friendship with their family. Give sincerity to me, and show my best mate, keep me away from the wrong people,” Inner Rendi sincerely.

In front of God, now Rendi resigned completely, releasing all his ambitions and ego, realizing he was only a man who could not do anything and many sins. Rendi then remembered Valen, why Valen suddenly came again, why also he suddenly became his dance partner, on the previous day he was with Axel. “What are they doing on purpose?” gumam Rendi thought.

“Huuft..., but I've really no sense with him,” Inner Rendi again.

Although accidentally, in his shadow, also illustrated the difference between Vallen and Nila. Vallen is much more independent, mature, capable and also beautiful. Vallen is also a friend of Rendi who knows the struggle of Rendi.

Vallen was also the one who kept approaching the silent and cold Rendi. Vallen is also the one who is resistant to Rendi's chuckle.

He was also willing to do anything for Rendi first. Even Vallen once invited Rendi to kaawin run so that his parents would approve. He even said he was willing to give up his body for her. Even so, at that time, Rendi chose not to. Rendi remained steadfast in choosing her own focus rather than breaking her conviction.

Unlike Nila who on the outside looks weak but when approached it turns out judes. If Vallen used to push Rendi away and disobey the parents, but Nila is very dear to her mother and father as well as her two younger siblings.

“I must be careful and must not fall asleep again?” rummaging Rendi then concluded.

As Rendi silently cupped her face and read Alfatihah, Rendi's phone rang

“Who else, anyway? Is it night?” muttered Rendi a little annoyed, she most disliked the disrespectful other people calling at night.

Even so, he ignored the call and still fulfilled the obligation to answer. Rendi immediately woke up without folding her alphabet and looked at her phone.

“Syamsul?” muttered Rendi, at once his chest immediately thumped and immediately picked up his phone from his sister-in-law. Tumben once, Syamsul who calls Rendi, usually Aisyah, let alone midnight.

“Good...yeah, Brother come home soon. In what room? What number?” asked Rendi frantically to her sister-in-law behind the phone. After someone answered Rendi's question, Rendi immediately turned off her phone.

And at that time, even though the alphabet was still spread, even though he was still wearing a sarong and cocoa clothes, Rendi rushed half-run to grab his jacket. No matter having to fight the cold and split the dark road, that night Rendi immediately drove her car fast towards her village. Syamsul phone, Abinya shortness of breath relapsed and was taken to the hospital.

“Huuft, Abi...,” lirih Rendi her heart was instantly destroyed hearing her Abinya was sick, lucky the night trip was not jammed, Rendi stepped on the gas pedal steadily. Rendi could not think anything if until the shadow he had happened, at this time, even he was making Abi and Umminya disappointed.

Rendi did not want to, Abinya left him when she still did not forgive him, and was angry. While turning the steering wheel occasionally Rendi bit her fingernails because of her geroginya and Paniknya Rendi, even without anyone looking, Rendi shed tears.

“Abi please be strong, please please please Yes Alloh please my father. Hopefully all will be well, healthy Abi….Rendi will obey all want Abi,” Inner Rendi determined.