Love Fraudsters
Chapter 48. Support System

I was confused about what else to do, in my circumstances that should focus on learning because I was in the pharmacy at that time. Lots of memorization of drugs and all kinds of indications and contraindications. But I've never focused on learning as long as Satria hasn't healed. 

"Lo can't blank Ri.. This is if you can't answer you can't pass this part.." Ka Rina advised me.

"Yes Ka.. I'm confused as to why gini. I try to focus but I can't. Or did I just resign at this stage?" Reply pessimistically. 

"Eh nanggung Ri's... You have already paid this stage, when you want to resign. Let's learn." 

I nodded and tried to learn even though the thought of Satria continued. Ah dammit.. The brain felt stupid at the time, like it could not learn at all. 

After I got home from work, I went straight home. Fortunately, the activities at the pharmaceutical station were not until the afternoon when the day had come home that day. Once at home I was clean and then immediately went to sleep. Yep.. If I am sad or stressed I use my time to sleep so that I do not cry continuously. 

Before long my HP shook, there was a message coming from Ka Gaida. 

"R.. Where's?" Ask Ka Gaida. 

"In the house of Ka.. Why?" Quick reply. 

"Oh I think it's still on campus. I was going to watch it later this afternoon when I came back from work. Yaowis that's Ri.."

"Tomorrow I want a Ka exam.. I guess I can't watch it either."

"Oh, is the exam tomorrow? Yaudah gapapa if I watch it myself."

This time I did not like the usual chat with Ka Gaida briefly, usually I reply with laughter and jokes. And it seems like Ka Gaida knows that I'm not okay.

"You why Ri? Still thinking of Satria? Don't think so Ri, life has to go on. Moso you don't want to do anything - why is that the case."

"It's only natural that I'm kayak gini? I've been trying to do it too.."

"Yeah but I see you still keep kayak gini Ri, you also have a life of your own. Think Mama Dama your father."

"Hm.. Yes kaa... Thank you for continuing to support me."

"Yes the same - the same Ri, hopefully tomorrow the test will be smooth yaa.." 

"Amiii.. Yes Ka.. That's why I want to learn first.. Sorry I can't watch it first." 

"Iyaa Ri gapapa, if there is anything - do not hesitate the same story me. I'm like your sister Ri."

"Yeah Ka.."

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So often I forget that I am sad if many comfort me. But sometimes when it's quiet I remember my sadness about Satria. I wish this was all a dream and when I woke up I was with her again. Seeing him healthy and happy with me. Gathered with his family and my family, then met with his friends and friends. That's all I expected. Sometimes when I think about it, why am I like this? Why is my romance drama never good? Could it be my sins in the past that made my love life like this? I always feel self-blame when Satria is like this. Oh my.. Forgive me, I'm a sinful man. Please Satria, wake up and let him. He's good and he still has a lot of responsibilities to take care of, don't take his life. Let him live until later. That was my wish for days without any progress from Satria.