Love Fraudsters
Chapter 64. Always Good

"Gue doesn't believe in Robert's death. I don't know why I feel so weird." I'm still chat Vienna.

"Gue can't think of Ri anymore. So tired of this life.. I really didn't think Robert would arrive - there wasn't." 

"Prophe Win, I'll help you find out. It's me diem - diem yaa.. Even Ka Gaida doesn't know if I find out Satria and Robert."

"No need Ri, Big brother also feels strange as he knows. Bokap you are suspicious that he is actually the same. But he still pretended not to know.  Feeling I he knows.." 

"But to be honest.. I have to face two now with Ka Gaida. I can't start to find out."

"Yaudah you'll hear back - I'll tell Ri."

"okay."

Finally I started to find out, even until nightfall before going to bed I continued to find out. I created a fake Instagram account to find out who they were. One by one.. But I honestly didn't have much picture at the time. All I remember is I found more than one Satria instagram. I remember there were 3. And finally I opened Satria's instagram one by one, it was unlocked. Then I found a photo and he was holding a cigarette. All I remember is an old photo before I met him, but Satria told me he wasn't a smoker. Honestly when I saw her, my heart was broken. It hurts a lot to be lied to and even I know not from the person directly. But looking at the social media accounts that I don't know. I immediately contacted Satria.

"Honest. I suddenly found this photo. I'm not disappointed with the cigarettes, but I'm surprised why not tell. I also never forbid, as long as Mas know what is good for Mas. They are also adults. That's why I said, if there's privacy that Mas doesn't want to tell me also no problem. As long as Mas says 'I have privacy for that' 'Yaudah I'll take it. And, if Mas has more than one instagram I also have no problem. That's the right and privacy mas, I also will not ngosik or ngat ngat instagram Mas other. It's my feeling that brings me to know all this. Not because of anyone else. I even had more than one WA before there was a new WA as well because I knew it might be Mas's privacy." 

Satria immediately replied to my chat with anger, which strangely he was angry at that time. Even though he is amnesiac, how can he understand there are many instagram?

"I can't live monitored like this, I broke up the first one because it was too monitored. At least I like to be found out like this, it turns out all the girls are the same, always ngusik, montau, I can not Ri. I think that's enough, no need to continue. Sorry if I haven't been the best all this time, hopefully after this you can get a lot better than me, amiin."

"For the sake of Allah.. At least I never wanted to find out about you. At first glance, arrived and I never had the slightest negative thinking with you, at all. Is that how easy it is to say I'm like this? Though from earlier I cry - cry like a bego. You're a boy, right? You want to lie to me 100 times will never change my feelings for you. Maybe because of my sincerity. You say baby but this mistake you can tell me. Satria is a good man, I know you are good. And I always liked your kindness. From the beginning, I never wanted to find out about you. Because you're very open with me. I said to you, I'm so sorry if anyone has done it like there's something that brought me to find out. But after that I never wanted to accuse you of anything. Make me find out more. If you feel you need privacy I am also not prohibited. I always shirk? Ngorang? I'm not crazy, Mas. I'm not the one looking for either. Because I know you're kind and honest. I used to think badly of you. Disappointed? You're the one disappointed? Okay. Wrongly? Am I wrong? Okay. From today I close everything, eyes, telinha equally hearted so as not to know what - what and do not understand how it feels sad, fun, happy. Hopefully we can become more mature. Semga Mas could be even better. Semga Mas will always be Mas Satria as it is. No man is perfect, no man is satisfied. I'm also an ordinary human being with feelings. Sorry if I am always wrong in my eyes. Maybe I am an exaggerated person. Are you angry with me? Surely huh? I mean mean a lot. Are you used to deciding one-sided? That love will always be there if it is this heart that begins. We must have been disappointed with our partner, we have been angry, ever upset, but if indeed love is true love, no matter how big the mistakes of our loved ones will certainly be forgiven. I'm sorry if I was wrong. Your words are my encouragement every day. I'm always grateful that you've come to know me, to open my heart that was so hurt that day. Because of you, I'm the one who's always happy."

At that time I felt a woman who was begging for love and if remembered I felt stupid so many times to send a chat to Satria, so that Satria melted and would forgive me. Until I had trouble sleeping and finally I sent another message to Satria.

Until midnight, I had a hard time sleeping. Until I finally sent him another message.

"You haven't slept?" 

Satria just read my chat. After 30 minutes I chatted him again.

"Yaudah sorry to bother ya."

After that I cried until I was tight, even I got dizzy. I immediately went to sleep because Satria would no longer reply to my message. I've resigned after this how my relationship with Satria.

***

When I woke up in the morning, I checked that Satria still did not reply to my message. I also feel weak. But strange this time, the night I even dreamed Robert was alive. Even in a dream, Robert spoke Indonesian. All I remember in that dream was Robert saying, "Ri, say Vienna.. I'm fine here and I'm not dead yet." It felt so real, until I finally told Vienna that I dreamed Robert was alive. Until Vienna cried again to hear my story. Even I wish it was real.

Yes, after the afternoon Satria sent me a cover song that stated that she would never forget me even if we were not together. Satria was always good at the time.