Love Fraudsters
Chapter 67. Toxic

The afternoon was a debate, it was Monday while I was waiting for online college. 

"I tell you, make your learning nantinyakalo there is a new guy. That guy doesn't like being watched, being found out like that, that's the least favorite thing about guys."

"Ngapain talks about that.. I still haven't thought about dating."

"For now you can say that. Your life goes on, you can't keep going." 

"Yaa justin, free to have a girlfriend is also heartache continues. I was alone.. I'm tired of it." 

"You know your parents, your parents want your life to grow. Not there."

"Jaudah need not be discussed.. Maybe you have a girlfriend or someone other than me. That's why you told me to find another guy."

"I don't exist.. Why is it always behind me anyway? Why do you like to go back to me?" 

"Well, I just need facts and proof.. I-i know. If people like to talk does not fit the reality and sometimes there are people who love me if I like it can just have more than 1 girlfriend."

"With people talking, what are people saying about me?"

"No, I said I needed proof. Suddenly you are diem - diem has more than one Instagram. It hurts so much, Mas. Hehe.." 

"You said you never heard people talk. That means you've told me about me.. What do people say?"

"Yes that's Mas.. Can be more than 1 social media because you have a girlfriend of more than 1." 

"I'm surprised you yesterday whatsapp like that, I think you're different. It turns out all girls are the same."

"Yeah you can't hit all those kayak girls.. I believed in you from the beginning, you are kind, honest. And I never found out, but this doesn't know anything about you. Feeling a girl Mas." 

"I feel like you're getting here to change Mas."

"I'm changing?"

"Yes, I think you're weird."

"Is there something strange about me?"

This time I understood that Satria thought I was not her boyfriend anymore, but it felt strange why she changed her attitude to me so quickly. He said he loved me very much. 

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I always feel toxic if arguing with Satria, then I like begging to come back again because we still continue to chat intimate. Even I cried for days because it was too difficult to let go of Satria. Until I finally felt Satria had begun to melt and felt starting to return to early Satria. 

But I remember when I was crying in fear because I had a big fight with Satria, until Satria blocked all my social media and my number. I cried with fear and trembling. And then there was Ka Gaida who was staying at my house, and then she was kind of upset to see my situation like that. Whereas when I was busy crying and trying to contact Satria via email he was also busy playing a mobile phone.

"Udah is not Ri dangisin. Just be remin.." Sahut Ka Gaida's. 

"I can't Ka.. I can't if Satria doesn't like this to me." 

"Some part of your relationship I see - see it is not good to know Ri. The time of fighting should be kayak gini? How do ya.. I guess no one wants to give. It was Ri, and it was Satria. That kayak guy. I'm well, even though his best friend doesn't agree that he's your giniin." 

"I love him Ka, I can't be like him. I really love it..." 

My stupid words at that time while crying as you pleased. I felt Satria was my last love, she was the right man for me. Because there are so many similarities. I was so sure at the time that we could be together. But again, I was stupid at the time.