Merlinda (Ranging Back)
He Just Takes Time to Recover

Elin shut the door of her room. For a moment he fell silent at the side of the door, leaning on his almost fragile body.

His body was shaking withstanding all the emotions that were inside him.

His chest began to feel tight by tears that are still in the resistance not to fall by reality.

However, the stronger he held back from crying. Then it felt more and more claustrophobic of his chest. His frail body had now slumped to the floor of the room. He could no longer think after knowing the harsh reality he had just received.

Now his eyes were looking one way at the window of the room which showed a dark sky with several stars there.

" God what else is this trial ?. What sadness I have been through is not enough "he said with tears flowing down her delicate face, "I think I'll be really happy "he said starting to hoarse. Then with a cry that finally broke.

Immerse his face between the two bent legs. No more race there. Only the sobs of bitter tears that were choked by the chest felt increasingly tight.

Tok tok tok tok

Suddenly the door to his room rang with a knock, "Elinn. "call weakly from across the door.

" It's Meili" she said telling. However, Elin remained silent regardless of her calling.

" I know you must be very disappointed" said from behind the door that sounded so weak.

" We'll do anything you can to forgive Mami's mistakes. Mami really regretted what Elin did, and she really never wanted this to happen ".

" Eliiinnn. "call him back. " I beg you to speak "the question.

" Go Meili. At the moment I want to be alone "surely said from behind the door.

Meili was silent for a moment staring at the door that was not open, "Pardon us Elin. And I beg you not to punish my brother" he said so weakly, "He loves you so much Elin.

Slowly his feet moved away. Although his eyes did not stop looking at the door, "O Lord I beg you. Weaken Elin's heart " said Meili praying. Before actually leaving the door of Elin's room.

Elin lifted her fragile body towards her bed. With puffy eyes he tried to bring himself into the dream. Right now that was all he could do to relieve the pain in his heart by the reality he had to know again.

In her bed her tears were dripping back. It was actually hard for him to understand what he was feeling right now.

Disillusioned. Mournfully. Angrier. It all seems to mix into one. However, on the other side of his heart, he couldn't blame everything on Viona either. Maybe it's fate and maybe it's his way of life.

Which he doesn't understand. Why this harsh reality should be revealed now. When he wants to start a happy life. When he came back to believe. That he also deserves to be happy And why should Viona be the one who caused the accident to happen.

Which he remembers. He could only cry in the middle of a squeezed body, then a hand held his body gently with a warm smile, and that moment became the last memory in his memory to see his birth mother smile.

And why the event was so attached to the memory of a child who was two years old at the time.

The loud sound by the blow was still vividly remembered within his brain. Even his small body that was slammed because of the overturned car was still felt to this day. All he did not remember was the face of someone who had saved himself at that moment.

Enteng said if it was just a mass. Just an accident unintentionally. Something to forget because everything can't change anything anymore. For people who have not experienced it themselves. Not knowing how hard it was to grow up after that. Not knowing how he had to cry all night because of his longing for his parents. Not knowing how hard it was he tried to pretend to look okay in front of everyone. how difficult it was to get out of his trauma and not know how much pain he felt whenever others brought up his status as an adopted child.

If it comes back. If only the accident had not happened maybe his life path would not be like this. You don't have to find it hard to get love. He does not need to cry because he misses his parents and for sure he will not be an adopted child in the family of others.

Elin again sobbed with a cry that was choked by an increasingly tight chest. Although he repeatedly breathed. However, not the slightest wisp within his chest diminished.

Now he lay his face between his hands stirring with tears flowing.

Now it was hard for her to stop her crying. It was as if the grief piled up for decades was now scattered instantly. Just because of a fact that just came up. Yet it is like the root of all his grief.

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" How ? " ask Viona who stood up immediately when she saw Meili coming back from Elin's room.

And the girl sighed, "He wants to be alone Mam "he replied weakly.

" Leave him alone first" Wilna continued.

" We better get home first. Our presence here will actually make it more depressed "he continued.

Banyu and Reymond nodded in agreement, "Yes we should go home dear "he told Viona.

" We will always tell you how she is. Miss Wilna's right. We'd better end it tonight. Let Elin alone and calm herself down "limpal Bimo.

Viona seemed resigned to the decision of everyone who wanted to go home. Even though he really wanted to run to Elin's room and begged to be forgiven by the woman. However, all true the girl needs to be alone. It was necessary to calm his feelings by the mess he had made.

" Every time I talk to him. Please apologize to her "viona told Mala. The middle-aged woman nodded weakly with teary eyes, "the trials that God presents for our child's marriage are so heavy. I hope He weakens Elin's heart to forgive "he said with tears already flowing, as he could no longer endure his current sadness.

In his arms tightly hugged Mala's body by Viona. And he came back crying so much, "it's a punishment for my fault Elin's mother. And I hope your daughter doesn't punish my son for this mistake "it's so sad. Hearing that Mala's tears were getting more and more flowing, "I believe my daughter's heart is not that hard Mistress. Please be patient, he just needs time to recover "he said amid the tears.