Merlinda (Ranging Back)
Cry Tonight
Wish I could, I could've said goodbye
I would've said what I wanted to
Maybe even married for you
If I knew it would be the last time
I would've broke my heart in two
Tryin' to save a part of you
Don't wanna feel another touch
Don't wanna start another fire
Don't wanna know another kiss
No other name falling off my lips
Don't wanna give my heart away
To another stranger
Or let another day begin
Won't even let the sunlight in
No, I'll never love again
I'll never love again, oh, oh, oh, oh
When we first met
I never thought that I would fall
I never thought that I'd find myself
Lying in your arms
And I want to pretend that it's not true
Oh baby, that you're gone
'Because my world keeps turning, and turning, and turning
And I'm not moving on
Don't wanna feel another touch
Don't wanna start another fire
Don't wanna know another kiss
No other name falling off my lips
Don't wanna give my heart away
To another stranger
Or let another day begin
Won't even let the sunlight in
No, I'll never love
I don't wanna know this feeling
Unless it's you and me
I don't wanna waste a moment, ooh
And I don't wanna give somebody else the better part of me
I would rather wait for you, ooh
Don't wanna feel another touch
Don't wanna start another fire
Don't wanna know another kiss
Baby, unless they are your lips
Don't wanna give my heart away
To another stranger
Won't let the sunlight
Oh, I'll never love again
Never love again
Never love again
Oh, I'll never love again
Lady Gaga's song is heard on the radio again in the taxi that Elin was riding to her apartment , after traveling more than eight hours , finally Elin reached her destination city , NEW YORK.
Elin directed her gaze out the car window, the speck of rain and the song as if to describe her heart now .
"If I knew it would be the last time
I would've broke my heart in two
Tryin' to save a part of you" Elin's lips moved to follow the lyrics of the song that was still playing on the radio and without her noticing, her tears had dripped on her smooth face ,
the raindrops and song lyrics that are so touching are alloys that are perfect for hearts that are in turmoil .
" I'm sorry " said Elin when she realized that the taxi driver was staring in wonder at the windshield of the front of the car.
" It's okay Miss, is there anything I can help you with ? " said the driver smiling ,
" no, thank you sir " replied Elin and smiled back at the taxi driver who if estimated to be almost 60 years old.
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Elin sat on the sofa with the room still wrapped in white cloth, her eyes staring out, looking at the view of New York City from inside her apartment.
With walls made entirely of glass, making him able to stare satisfied every corner of New York City.
LEONARD STREET (56 leonard) is a luxury apartment he lived in as long as he was in the most populous city in the world, he deliberately chose Leonard , because it is located in the city center and is located not far from the PERSON SCHOOL OF DESIGN, the famous university in AMERICA that will be the place to go to school later , it only took 16 minutes of distance between LEONARD STREET and PERSON SCHOOL and it was already expected.
Elin breathed in because of the loneliness she felt, without her family and friends.
Turned on the phone screen that since then he continues to hold and try to contact one of his friends, but he paused when he saw the clock that shows the number 3 because of the time difference of 12 hours , this means that in Indonesia it is at three in the morning.
Back he put his gap on the sofa next to him sat down and looked back at the afternoon of New York City which was still filled with cloudy clouds and rain spots.
" It looks like the weather is understanding my feelings" he said with a lip line he forced to curve upwards, then his eyes looked back at every corner of the room that is now his new residence , which is far from the frenetic voice of the people closest to him.
Not one day he was here but longing about the atmosphere of Jakarta City has been missed.
" I can certainly "he said again and then went from the sofa to the main room , the room that will be a place to rest from all fatigue later.
After changing into clothes Elin cleaned all the rooms that were actually clean, he just rearranged according to his wishes, displaying various photos in figurines that he brought from Indonesia , photos of his parents with his tama and youngest sister, photos of the three of him with Green and Amel and not left behind a photo of little Naina, the little girl he loved so much.
Elin again took her breath when she pulled out a figura depicting 6 people and it was a photo when they were in Lombok precisely on the beach Kuta and when Gery was still there , Elin rubbed the figura glass with her glassy eyes, in the picture it was seen that they were happy and she was in the arms of Gery .
" Why is everything so fast passing" muttered Elin with a finger that kept wiping the figura glass, precisely on the face of the man she so longed for.
" This smile, I miss God "he said again with tears falling on his cheeks.
Two years have passed yet not a single shred of memory has been forgotten, which until now every memory of it would cause a sense of tightness in Elin's heart.
He wiped his tears and placed the photo on a small table between the sofas.
and he again took one last figura in his bag and it was a photo of him and Gery both , the photo taken on the night Gery revealed his heart and on his first birthday he was grateful for, the happiest night for him, yet now , that night would be a painful memory that scratched his heart every time it stopped him again.
He walked up and took the photo to his room.
" I'm still putting you in the best place" he said as he placed the photo on the nightstand next to the bed.
Elin again sighed, staring at the photo before her.
" I'm sorry I'm still crying, but I miss you so much" she said with selfless tears streaming down her cheeks.
Elin buried her face between her legs, let her cry tonight , lamenting all that happened and longing for the one she so longed for , her sadness is not a mistake , ' ' she said , he deserves to vanish because only he knows how his heart and his feelings are now.
Cry tonight because tomorrow he must be ready to live the new life he will start.
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