Not the First
Stepping

After Wibie conveyed the results of her meeting with Rey's parents last night, now Rey's feelings became a little relieved. Licensing business is over. Next he will help the future husband yes it to take care of the letters to RT until the village.

Rey must understand. As a field person, Wibie would be very difficult to take care of everything, especially the distance to the main reason.

His father and mother did not mind his decision, getting married in Jakarta without a celebration party. It has something to be grateful for. Rey must not be greedy let alone greedy for God. What he has now makes him happy.

What was his decision was quite strange. Happy little girl out there must imagine a magnificent party on her wedding day.

They will show all the families and know how happy they can sit together at the wedding with the man.

Rey is different. He was not unhappy when he decided to accept Wibie's proposal. But it was his current condition that made him have to set aside that desire.

He is more guarding his feelings from the words and scorn of people who could hurt his heart. For that, he decided enough marriage. What matters is that their relationship is immediately destroyed. Even if one when he changed his mind, want to hold a celebration party is also not a problem. She believes her future husband can realize his will.

Tonight Rey will call her eldest brother. He wants everything related to his marriage to be completed as soon as possible. This time he will talk about the steps that had previously been touched on by the mother.

"Tuuuttt.....,"

Phone calls are connected.

Shortly call received. Nay's voice was heard across the street.

"Hello, Assalamualaikum, Brother," Rey immediately opened the conversation.

"Waalaikum greetings," answered Nay hesitantly. Maybe because it has not saved Rey's new contact number so he needs time to recognize the voice of the person who contacted him.

"Sister, this is Rey. Brother how are you?"

"Oh, you're Dek. I'm doing fine. I'm glad you got a job and are getting married soon" said Nay. As soon as he found out it was his sister, he immediately asked for news.

"Thank you, Brother,"

“Kak Nay want to step what?” ask Rey about her brother.

The question was accepted by Nayla. Simple, but enough to make Nay's heart slashed so that he could not answer it as soon as possible.

Nayla was silent for a moment. He tries to regulate his emotions as much as possible. Although he had guessed, Rey contacted to ask this question, he still could not hold back his sadness.

Rey understands this situation. For that he gave his brother time. Although there was no answer from Nay for a long time, he remained patient until his brother was ready to answer. Rey doesn't want to repeat the question either. She was sure Nay could hear her voice well.

The breath was so heavy from there that Rey could hear.

"I'm sorry, brother. I'm sorry if I have to put you first" Rey whispered inwardly

Rey feels bad. Things like this would be very sensitive for Nay. Preceded to marry, or be overstepped by a younger sister as if to be a kind of disgrace in itself for women like him.

Nay is 23 years old. Since finishing High School he did not want to continue college. In addition to the limitations of the outgoing economy, Nay was also not interested in going to college.

Dad also offered a course that could give him expertise, but Nay turned it down. Her days are just helping mom at home.

Nay is also not a sociable child, therefore it is almost never seen he went out of the house with friends or the opposite sex. It could be said that he is a less pede in the relationship.

Wibie's arrival last night was actually quite sad for Nay. Suddenly Rey who is still young will be proposed by an established person. He has no sign of going in that direction.

Mom had arranged for Nay to have a mother-daughter acquaintance a few months ago. Single man who opened a motorcycle wash business. But that man is not the type of man who is serious in a relationship. After being introduced to Nay he never gave certainty to their relationship, refused nor did he. Worse yet, he also never visited the house just a friend.

"As far as you are?” nay replied curiously after he had been silent for quite a while.

“Later I asked mom aja.” replied Nay. His voice grew quieter and sounded like he was holding back a cry.

Before long, Nay's voice sounded. Calling my mother to come closer. Rey could hear that clearly because Nay didn't keep Hp out of his mouth.

Mom joined the tour, hearing the conversation of the two girls. Shortly Nay handed the phone to her mother and left the two of them to continue the conversation.

“Rey, how about you give your sister a necklace with her pendant.” said mother as a tongue connector Nay.

Then, he fell silent for a while before continuing.

“Yes, that's if you don't mind. Itung-itung as a sister's memory to her brother.” added mother again.

Rey remained silent for a while. He rolled his eyes up while counting something.

"How much money does he need to provide for the step," he whispered.

"Life, he's never worn that thing. His parents had never bought gold jewelry except for earrings attached to his ears. It was also a long time ago, whether when he was how old his mother put that thing in his ear.

"If the necklace in question is the size of the one used by the mother, how many grams will it weigh? How much" asked Rey. Still on himself.

"Rey," call mom.

"Yes, Mom," said Rey.

"Where? You mind? Don't count your brother. You're luckier than him. You can go to college, do a good job, get an established husband. That time is still thinking about it," urged the mother.

"Yes Mom. Rey doesn't mind if that's what Nay wants. Rey will try. About how many grams of necklace and lion is it, Mom?" asked Rey

"About 10 grams. But remember, 24 carat gold. Don't be young, "mom's asserted again.

"Yes, Mom. Rey will provide it,"

"Thank you for being nice to your sister. You're such a bad boy, Rey, "praise me.

*******

This morning I talked to Nay about it. The kid just said, “I don't pa-pa, ma'am. No problem koq.”

But mother caught his face so moody, it looked so swollen. Looks like the kid can't sleep all night.

I don't know, outside he was trying hard, but in his heart who knows. I a look sad all day. Not sad because Rey will marry and step over him, but sad or precisely afraid of the words of people outside.

“I don't want to be pitied. If they knew, they'd feel sorry for him," that's what Nay thought in his heart.

“I must be strong. No problem, right? Many girls my age are not married, even though his neighbor is 30 years old.” entertain Nay again.

Stepping business he doesn't care. Whatever his brother gives him, he will accept it. But I'm actually concerned about Nay's resignation.

"Where can you say whatever. Rey's husband-to-be works in the mine, not to mention he has a convection business in Jakarta. You asked for nothing that didn't matter to him,"

"Rey is also working. He already has his own money. We have never enjoyed the results. Ask what you want. They must have fulfilled it," Mother's advice.

But Nay did not immediately decide what he wanted. Finally, the mother herself determines the step that Rey must prepare for her older sister.

Nay smiled wryly, “Nobody knows what I really feel? No one knows. But, all pretentious," he told himself. She was getting along with her mother and the situation that caused her to be like this