Reaching the Moon
Chapter 35

The weekend ended not so well. Maybe that's how the moon feels right now. Since the incident of the panda mascot, until almost entering the weekend again, he unconsciously put a sense of caution to Nizam even though he did not want it.

The moon has forgiven both Nizam and Nizawa. However, there is still a fear that covers his heart every time he meets the husband, making the woman reflex turn around and away. In fact, he will only enter the bedroom when Nizam has fallen asleep.

Moon knew Nizam would be sad to find his attitude that increasingly makes the distance between them. But what can he do? There was a reaction from his body that was so hard to avoid.

It is not easy to resist the control of his subconscious, because he himself has tried hard to fight and do what he wants. However, forcing herself only returned to hurt him.

As of this moment, the Moon could only stare at Nizam who went to work from behind a window. He followed her with a faint smile and dewy eyes. The feeling is wrong, wants to get closer, but uncomfortable, and away it feels even more excruciating.

"I'm sorry, Mom. Instead of getting better, I'm getting more and more troublesome for you. I know your intentions are good, even if you really want me to get used to your touch, it's perfectly normal, even that's your right as a husband. I'm the one who's not normal here and all this trouble comes from me, I really suck," shrewdly last month walked shilly-nilly towards her room with a face so sad.

When arriving in the room, the Moon looked at the entire room to find clothes that should be scattered to wash. However, the woman's attention was now turned to a paper on the nightstand. He picked up the paper and started reading it.

'Honey, don't forget to take your medicine, Dad! Hopefully soon improve. I will always be your support system, God willing.'

The moon sat on the side of the bed, then looked back at the nightstand which was already available a glass of drinking water and a container containing medicine there. The woman smiled and started taking her medicine.

"Thank you, Mum."

His gaze was now fixed on the panda doll given by the husband who was in the corner of the room. Without him noticing, drop by drop tears began to wet his cheeks. His memory of the face of the husband who initially smiled suddenly paled when he realized his presence in the garden at that time was enough to make his heart look sliced.

Especially if you remember how patient Nizam as a husband who never demands anything, and always ready to be on standby to calm down if the memory of his trauma suddenly returns.

This time the Moon really gave off a sense that had been held since marrying Nizam. At first he thought that by harboring that inexplicable sense, his soul would get used to it and eventually become strong. However, the facts he experienced were different. The more he tried to pendam, the more sick and tormented his inner self.

"Why has my illness not improved? Is this a rebuke from God because of my intention to get married wrong?" thought the woman.

Yes, the beginning of the Moon agreed to marry because of the advice from Syifa to have a support system, so it can accelerate his recovery. Let alone the reason for getting married, he did not even have time to think about how his relationship would be with the husband.

"Astaghfirullah." Again the woman could only be privileged to realize her mistake. If so, then indeed, she had desecrated Nizam as her husband.

The woman was getting late in crying, she did not care if the middle-aged woman who was a household assistant in the house heard it. He regretted and regretted all his mistakes.

Satisfied with crying, the Moon wiped her tears that had soaked her cheeks, trying to improve her sitting and breathing. This time he began to be determined to change the purpose of his marriage in the beginning into worship to God. Even if the disease is completely cured, then it is a bonus from Him.

All the Moon needs to do right now is build a strong determination for her recovery. Because to be able to carry out all worship well, then he must be physically or psychically healthy.

"Bismillah" said the woman, rising from the bed and walking towards the kitchen. This time she plans to make lunch for her husband. Pleasing the husband is certainly a worship, so he wants to start by throwing away his own ego and fear.

Aided by Mak Nira-sang's domestic assistant, Moon began to cook Nizam's lunch menu. A smile rose on the beautiful and shady face of the woman, she was quite excited this time. Hopefully, his efforts can have a positive impact on their relationship and of course for his psychological health.

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Arfan stood in front of Nizam's desk with furrowed brows. Not without reason, since arriving at the office until the time of lunch, the man looked agitated and reluctant to leave his room. He didn't even want to meet anyone first, except the assistant.

Not to mix personal issues with work. His mind is currently in chaos. He does not want to make decisions with an unclear mind. Just as a person is forbidden to make decisions when he is angry because he is afraid that the decision can give birth to regret later on.

"What's really going on, boss?" ask Arfan who began not to bear watching the drama of the friend.

"Moon, it seems like he hates me even more," Nizam replied rubbing his face rough.

Nizam just put his shoulder around in response to Arfan's question.

"Because both are trying to avoid conflict. Trying to look okay, but actually his mind is depressed," continued Arfan.

"What do you mean?" Now it was Nizam's turn to bend his forehead to look at Arfan.

"Need openness, Boss. Especially for the Moon with a slightly complicated condition. What you want to do for him must be communicated in advance so that he knows your intentions and does not misunderstand. Maybe you can ask her what you can do to make her feel comfortable, and what you need to avoid to avoid triggering her traumatic response" Arfan explained.

Nizam. Now he realized one thing, all this time he always relied on instinct alone in making decisions. If he thinks it's good for the Moon, then he'll make it happen without asking for the woman's opinion. And the result he had felt at this time, the wife was afraid and tried to avoid it.

"So, let's just say this is a test at the beginning of your marriage. Patience, I'm sure, one day the Moon will heal," continued Arfan again to make Nizam a little calm.

"I didn't expect, it turns out you're smart too, Fan," Nizam praised for the advice and advice that helped him at this time.

"Ekhem, thank you, boss. You are indeed very lucky to have a sister-in-law like me" Arfan said and then began to laugh, but was stopped forcibly because Nizam suddenly threw him with a pen.

"Just been praised a bit has been done."

Tok tok tok tok

The sound of knocking on the door of Nizam's room instantly distracted the two men. Arfan swiftly moved to open the door to convey if the boss did not want to be disturbed. However, he was quite surprised when he found out who was coming this time.

"Assalamu 'alaikum, Nizam is there, right?" ask Aura.

"Yes there" answered Arfan unable to prevent the woman from entering the room.

"aura? What's up here?" asked Nizam who was also no less surprised to see the arrival of Aura.

"Do I have a reason to meet you?"

"Yes, because I'm married. I need to know your reason so I'll have an answer if the Moon asks."

Aura smiled wryly behind her mask hearing Nizam's reply. However, he was trying to look fine.

"Come, Zam. Don't be so stiff like this."

Nizam only smiled faintly and directed Aura to sit on the sofa in his room.

"What's wrong?"

Aura let out a rough breath finding Nizam who now tended to be cold to her. He no longer wants to continue his bases.

"I already know the condition of the Moon."

Nizam who was sitting before Aura directly looked at the woman with a frown, even his two eyebrows were about to meet each other.

"Zam, I know you have sympathy and pity for the Moon. But decided to marry him because it was not good for him. What you do can be a ticking time bomb, at times it can explode and hurt him even more."

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