Romeesa Syabani
I am Okay

The sun had reached his contest, Eca, Citra and Raia seemed to sit on the garden chair with a cloud of silence.

Too calm, to grow a big question mark in the minds of Raia and Citra.

They turned their eyes towards Eca who was still looking straight ahead, the blank view did not reflect an Eca who was their encouragement and booster mood.

"Ca.." Citra's hand gently touched Eca's shoulder to resuscitate her from her daydream.

Eca turned her gaze towards Citra and Raia who put on their worried and concerned gaze, ehm she did not like to get such a look of pity.

"Are you okay?" raia asked to make sure that even if she knew that Eca was not okay, but sometimes someone only needed someone who cared about her even if just asking 'are you okay'.

"Yeah, better than that" Eca replied while commenting on a little smile, uh well Citra and Raia did not like this type of smile as if it was too forced.

"Oh no, we've been here too long, pull out the yuk." invite Eca after glancing at her watch then flick her skirt if there is dust or dirt attached.

Citra and Raia exchanged glances and then looked back at Eca.

"Hey guys, come on I'm okay. look me i'm okay" Eca again confirms that she is fine when she sees their gazes still on her.

Citra and Raia sighed.

"Okay, if that's not unplugged, btw I first yak I far because of it, Ca lo if there's any call I okay" Raia patted Eca's shoulder softly while giving an encouraging smile as if saying 'you are not alone, there I am '.

Eca hugged Raia while whispering a word of thanks which was replied by a nod by Raia.

"I've taken it off, Ra take care of the kids!" Raia spoke both ways as she passed leaving them.

After Raia drove her iron horse Citra and Eca also stepped their feet towards the Eca residence, well they ran earlier.

"Are you calm?" ask Citra in between their footsteps.

"Well" Eca replied casually as she kicked the pebble blocking her path.

"You sure?" reply to the image again while walking backwards with the face facing Eca ensuring the expression and look of her face.

Eca sighed to see the behavior of Citra, although she did not deny Eca felt very lucky to have a friend like them.

"Yeah, I'm good, thanks for everything" Eca threw her smile at Citra before resuming her activities.

"Lah kayak to whom you say thank you all" Citra again normalizes the way not when he has made sure there is no longer an empty expression on his face.

"Hm" Eca's brief reply ended their conversation when they reached the fence of the house where Eca had been for 18 years.

On the terrace of the minimalist building, a woman who is still beautiful at her age who is not young anymore looks paced with tears flowing on her cheeks and hands that are not stopping wiping the clear liquid.

His steps came to a halt when the cause of his ruffled and restless heart had now stood in front of him in a healthy state despite the slight abrasions.

Eca closed her eyes when her Mother hugged her body tightly, feeling pain, anxiety and all the emotions of the Mother from the body vibration of the woman's body that embraced her.

Yes the woman is Ranti Mother Eca who is worried about her daughter.

"Unfortunately, Mommy is okay, right? nobody is sick, right? hm" Mother took off her embrace but her hands were ceaselessly tidying up Eca's messy hair, occasionally she blew blisters on Eca's hands.

Eca neutralized her emotions and then looked at her mother who looked panicked, for the sake of God Eca felt very guilty for making the most hated clear liquid back flowing on the face of her beloved Mother.

"No mom, i'm okay" Eca replied as she clasped Mommy's hand and let her catch her slowly.

Mother again pulled Eca into her arms, when she found her son who pretended to be strong in front of her, Mother was very clear about the current emotional state of Eca.

"Yes we have entered first baby" invited Mother to gently guide her daughter.

Eca looked at Citra who was also in tears then she sighed again and again before entering her house.

Eca and Citra went into their room after Mother finished with her chat.

Eca stepped her feet towards the bathroom then looked at Citra who had laid herself on her bed.

"Gue first yak" said Eca entered the bathroom without waiting for Citra's reply who either listened to it or not.

Eca looked at her chaotic face from the mirror reflection, yeah it's not too bad in her mind.

At least he has released a little of his emotions that might have an impact on his mentality, Eca still clearly remembers the message of the psychiatrist who examined her that she must be able to maintain her emotions if she wants to recover from the disease that Eca said is disgusting.

Yes, just a while ago he was declared to have IED (Intermittent Explosive Disorder) a mental illness that causes a person to not be able to control his emotions, like throwing things, hitting and others.

Although this disease can still be overcome with the help of drugs and meditation to calm his emotions, he said, his psychiatrist said his disease can be easily treated if he is not provoked which causes his emotions to peak.

The point is as long as he is not provoked and not too emotional then he will be safe and heal by itself.

Eca sighed as she recalled the man who had almost escaped the snare of this disease but returned to destabilize her when the arrival of her father who she had longed for turned out to have a big role in loneliness and pain her at this time.

Eca stepped up and sat herself under a shower that had been lit, cold water that fell on her body was one solution to soak her emotions that re-peaked, which was the solution, his head turned upwards with his eyes closed.

Ah today he was quite tired.

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