
I fell asleep and woke up at night, I got word from my father-in-law that Farhan had gone abroad to go into the business of cooperation that he had talked about this morning when we had breakfast.
"yu, sit here" said the father-in-law
I was sitting next to my father-in-law on the living room couch, Aunt Ida came to ask permission from my father-in-law if he was going home and coming back tomorrow morning, because Aunt Ida's son was sick.
"My master wants permission to go home because my son is sick now, I will be back tomorrow morning" said Aunt Ida who was standing next to me carrying a bag
"what sick aunt?" ask me
"fever yu and he asked Auntie to come home"
"go take care of your child first" said the father-in-law
"thank you sir, if you'll excuse me, assalamualaikum"
"walaikumsalam" I answered
After Aunt Ida came home, my father-in-law and I sat together on the sofa in the living room, talking about Farhan who had left the country.
"Farhan left this afternoon while you were sleeping, he will be living abroad for a while" the father-in-law said
"how many days will he be there?" ask me
"dad doesn't know for sure, because Farhan didn't tell dad when he was coming home either"
I was silent and could not speak anymore, tonight I actually wanted to serve Farhan and give him his rights as a husband, but he had left without telling me.
"do you want a drink?" ask my father-in-law
"yeah I went out of the room thirsty, I wanted to go to the kitchen to get some drinking water, but because my father called me I turned around"
"yeah, you've been quiet here, let me get you some water to drink"
"don't do well, ayu just take it yourself, I don't have to bother so"
"it's okay, you just wait here"
I feel bad to be given a drink by my father-in-law, but I also feel bad if I refuse his wish, I followed his words and remained silent sitting on the sofa while waiting for my father-in-law to bring me a drink.
Before long the father-in-law returned to the living room with a glass of drinking water in his hand.
"here, have a drink and rest in your room" said the father-in-law
I took the glass with the drinking water and took it to my room, in my room I drank until it ran out. after drinking I lay on the bed to rest while imagining Farhan's face my husband.
Shortly after I drank suddenly I felt dizzy and weak, my body felt unable to move, my eyes seemed to want to fall asleep when I was not sleepy..... until I didn't realize I was asleep and felt nothing.
the drink I was drinking had been mixed with medicine which left me lying helplessly without feeling anything.
"hahhhhhhh,,issshhhh,hahhhh" a voice sounded in my ears
At that time I was in a semi-conscious state, I was aware of my body being overwritten by someone but I also could not see who was above me, I thought I was dreaming and was in my sleep.
"ahhhhhhhhhhhh" the voice continued to be heard in my ears
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I woke up from my sleep, the clock showed at 8 am, with eyes that still could not see clearly, and the head that still felt dizzy I felt my vagin* felt sore. slowly I looked towards my body that was already completely naked without clothes.
Looking at my body that was not covered in cloth, my vagin* section, which was splattered with the blood of the swamp* me. Someone had snatched away my horror when I was unconscious. I cried and screamed because my anxiety was taken away by someone who was not my husband.
I ran towards the bathroom, turned on the shower and wiped the blood that was attached to my body part, my heart was broken, my mind was in a mess, I cried out with a body that was no longer holy.
I didn't realize I had been smeared by someone I didn't know, because last night I was completely unaware of something that had happened to me. I don't think at all that tarnishes me is my father-in-law, because I believe he couldn't possibly dare to fuck his own daughter-in-law.
After I cleaned up, I came out to wear clothes with a gloomy face and felt anxious about what had happened to me, the honor I have been guarding all this time must be taken by someone who is not my muhrim.
The honor that I had saved and that I was about to give to my husband, had now been snatched away without me noticing.I pondered in the room with tears constantly falling down, imagining what if I were pregnant, what would happen if I contained the seeds of someone who was not my husband.
Amidst my contemplation, my father-in-law entered the room with eyes that stared intently at me.
"you why? how crying?" the father-in-law asked
"no, no, it's okay" I replied nervously
"let's go out and have breakfast, Aunt Ida has cooked for us" said the father-in-law, holding my hand
I felt that hand was like the hand that touched me last night, when I was unconscious, I looked at my father-in-law and looked into his eyes while saying in my heart. "did the father who had fucked me last night, did he who had taken away my honor"
I went to breakfast, I was sure in my heart that the man who had fucked me last night was my father-in-law, because his hand that was holding mine made me feel the same touch as the one who had fucked me and had taken away my honor.
In the dining room I kept staring at my father-in-law, thinking that he was the one who had harassed me.
"what are you doing staring at me?" asked the father-in-law
"what, dad last night broke into my room?" ask me nervously
"what's the matter?, what happened"
"no yeah, I want to know"
after I finished breakfast I went back to the room, contemplating and imagining how I would become pregnant because of last night, how I told my husband that my virginity had been snatched away by his father.