That man is my husband
Advice from A Rey

I'm in A Rey's room right now. Since Abi's with Uma tonight is gone, so there's a chance for me to speak with A Rey's eyes. Until nightfall Aa was completely silent even though I kept sulking asking for an explanation. Explanation of the meeting between Aa and Mr. Zain and Keanu.

"A, I pulled back, who said A Rey was good," I grumbled as I laid my body on A Rey's bed.

A Rey huffed. He was focused in front of the laptop. I don't know what he's working on.

"A, answer me, dong."

"You're chatty, Deck."

"I wouldn't be this fussy if Aa wanted a story."

Aa looks to be breathing out. Then he turned off the laptop and closed it. Then walk towards the sofa.

"Wake up first, Dek. The sheets will get crumpled. Move here! Sit beside Aa." Aa patted the sofa next to her.

I sat down and sat down next to Aa.

"What do you want to know about?"

"All, A. When Aa met the same.Pak Zain and Keanu. I want to know what their response is?"

"They agreed. They will not question anyone you choose. They're good lads" A Rey explained.

Hearing the good word I immediately rented because the only good is Mr. Zain. If only Aa knew if Keanu had dared to hold on, I'm sure the word good would not have been spoken from Aa's mouth. But, unfortunately I'm not a complainant. Even when I said I was going to report Aa to Uma and Abi about the lipstick stains on her shirt, it was just a bluff. Not really going to complain.

"A good one it's just Mr. Zain. Not the case for Keanu."

"Lo, how come Ais is rich? Know where Keanu's from if he's not a good guy?"

"Feeling Ais aja, A."

"It can't be rich. Do not judge a person by his cover alone. Sometimes what we value is not good. It could be the opposite."

What I said is true. I read Keanu's CV and he's a good guy. But, again the heart does not accept it if Keanu is paired with Mr. Zain who I think is the perfect man.

"Yes, A, sorry."

"Why apologize to Aa?"

"Continue?"

"I apologize to Keanu, because you've been prejudiced against Keanu."

"No courage, A. Shame."

"Since when did Ais become the girl who was embarrassed to apologize? Ais Aa's sister isn't rich that way, she's brave let alone a matter of apologizing."

"It's different, A. Iis if it's near him the innards are upset constantly."

"Be careful, Deck. Do you remember these wise words? Love something because one day you will hate it. Hate something because someday you might love."

"Yes, Ais remember."

"Well, now you're rich it's Keanu. Who knows Keanu's your soul mate."

"Aaa uh."

"Why? Ah, Aa know lest Ais has put her heart into Zain, huh. C'mon ngaku? Wouldn't want to if dooain matchmaking with Keanu."

"No, A."

"Remember, Deck. Whoever your soul mate will accept it. Let not, for example, nih, Ais choose A, when God's istikharah even shows B. So, accept. God knows what's good for ice."

I feel overwhelmed. Aa looks a lot like Abi if rich gini. Wisely. I felt like I was being advised by Abi.

"A, thanks for the advice." I hugged Aa.

"Where is Aa rich yet?"

"Stay far away, A. But pretty good, anyway. From numbers one to ten Aa's resemblance is at number five."

"You can do it the most, Deck." Aa pinched my cheek.

"A, sick." I rubbed A Rey's pinched cheek.

"You're gemesin, Deck. Why is Aa just waking up now, yeah. The feeling of yesterday-yesterday was asking for mercy."

"LT...."

***

I woke up at exactly two in the morning. I'm determined to start to talk starting today. I don't want to be called a PHP woman (false giving of hope). I think faster is better. Because I also remember very well when Uma told me about Uma's love story before she was with Abi.

The story of Uma with Father Rudi-Dad of Kak Ila, Kak Ira and Kak Arsya- received a proposal from Father Rudi after a month beristikhatoh. Uma often said the fate of different people, maybe Uma's soul mate with Rudi's father just got there. Can't go on to his Jannah. But behind it all lies its own wisdom. That was the birth of me, A Rey and Brother Rein. If God had not ordained Uma together Abi united, maybe me and my brothers would never have existed. God always knows what is best for each of His people.

Doing istikharah not directly that day directly God love answers. It could be a few days, a few weeks or up to months. And Allah will answer every Istikharah of His people in various ways.

I stepped my foot into the bathroom to get some water. When the wudu water has soaked the face it feels cool, serene and fresh. After that, I held a prayer mat wearing a mukena and started the prayer solemnly.

I really enjoyed every prayer. From one movement to another. Especially when I was prostrating, I felt like a lowly human being in front of God. A man who has stained and sinned.

In my last bow, I said a prayer. Wasn't our last prostration dedicated to prostration? For in those days must be prayer.

'O Allah, O Rahman, O Rahhim. I come to you full of sincerity. Self-conscious servant, servant is just a man covered in sin. People who sometimes neglect their obligations. But on this silent night I begged. Show me which is the best among the best. Show me who among Mr. Zain and Keanu I should choose. Verily you are Omniscient and You are the best place to ask for help. Aamiin.'