That man is my husband
Determining Choices

I was pensively sitting on the prayer mat still wearing mukena. Really, why do I have to dream again? Even if he's the one I have to choose, why should he be that weird and scary? I don't know, only Allah SWT knows. Right now, I know who I should choose.

My heart is determined to choose him, there is no doubt. The man was a choice from Allah SWT and I believe he is indeed my best mate whom Allah has sent, to complete half of my religion, to guide me to His jannah and the man who will accompany me in this longest service. Weddings.

After breakfast I intend to tell you, Abi, Uma and Aa about my intentions. I don't think there's anything to delay anymore. Isn't quickening a good thing recommended? Therefore, it is time for me to choose one between the two of them.

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I feel doubtful. It felt like these lips were too faint to tell them. Even thinking about how I started talking to my family, breakfast was tasteless and tasteless.

It seems like Uma is starting to notice my strange behavior. He; Uma who is sensitive, he can always read the situation. Not just me. But on all family members, if anyone tries to hide something, it is certain Uma will know.

"What's wrong with you, honey? Why is it eating like it's not tasteful? Uma's cooking isn't good, is it?"

I looked straight at Uma. I don't want Uma to misunderstand me.

"Enak, really, Uma. When, anyway, Uma cooks bad? Uma's cooking is always good."

"Then why don't you eat it?"

Maybe it's time for me to talk. I look at the people I love. Abi; who was still busy chewing; the same Aa was busy chewing and Uma who was looking at me.

"Ais has an answer. And Ais wanted them to meet Abi, Uma and Aa. The ice will choose one of them directly in front of you" I said bowed and without giving a little pause in each sentence.

A second later, I heard Abi and Aa coughing. It seems like they choked with surprise at my words.

"Are you sure, son?" ask Uma.

"Yes, almost every day I have the same dream. And he's always the one in my dreams."

I don't know why I feel they're unhappy? Let alone seeing the faces of Abi and Aa moody so.

"Later in the evening call them here" Abi said, then immediately moved and left the dining table.

I was astonished at Abi's response. Was my decision wrong? Am I in too much of a hurry? Why is Abi so unhappy with my decision?

That question bothered my mind, for I did not know the answer.

"Don't think about Abi's response, yeah. Get them over here. Uma lives first, Uma wants to see Abi."

I just nodded small.

A moment later, I looked at Aa who was back busy chewing. No different from Abi, Aa also seemed unhappy.

I tried to ask Aa. Who knows if I got an answer from him.

Instantly, Aa immediately ended her breakfast. Then take me to college now without answering my questions.

"Come, Deck, we're leaving. There will be an operation. The distance from the campus to the hospital is quite far and Aa does not want to be late."

I breathe heavily. Okay, if nobody's gonna be honest with me. Let's just say they agree but because of shock their response will be like this.

I followed Aa's steps. As usual Aa put a helmet on my head, then put a jacket on my body. I'm like a kid who can't do anything.

But, I really enjoyed the little attention from Aa. After thinking about when else it could be like this, if only this year I got married and all the responsibilities turned to my husband. Little things like this can't happen.

Fifteen minutes later, Aa and I arrived. Before Aa leaves I want to confirm something first.

"Is Aa not happy Ais is making up her mind now? If it is, Iis will cancel, Iis...."

"Don't Deck!" Aa interrupted my words.

"If not, why do Abi and Aa look unhappy? I don't feel good."

Aa smiled then stroked my head which was covered in a green tosca hijab. "Aa happy, it's just that Aa didn't think that Aa's little and cute sister would have the status of someone else's wife and...."

Aa paused her words.

"And what, A?"

"It will leave Aa, Abi and Uma. Aa's not ready, Deck. Aa is not satisfied take care of you, not satisfied with your jokes and many more small things that do not want to end so soon."

I was moved, my eyes sorely wanting to cry. But I hold. I still have my shame, crying in public is not a good idea. I touched Aa's hand and held her very tightly, very tightly.

"Ais just married A. After Ais gets married we can still be like this. There is a ban, A. A married woman can't be familiar, joking and whatever it is with her family? There's no, A."

"There is none. It's just that you're not our responsibility anymore. We have no rights over you anymore."

"Where's the problem, A? Although I'm not your responsibility anymore, but I'm still your sister A, still Abi and Uma's son."

"You won't understand, Deck. Never mind, now you go to class. The two men's problem was to let Aa take care of it, it just so happened that Aa had their number."

Without many words Aa immediately launched the motor of the gemoy. I know Abi and Aa love me, and now I understand how Abi and Aa feel. Their attitude is not because they are not happy with my decision. It's just that they're not ready if I should have another man besides them.