That man is my husband
The Past 2

After I cried all day until I fell asleep so tired today, suddenly it was like someone was patting my shoulder telling me to wake up. And slowly I opened my eyes and it turned out that my three best friends were already on the bed with their anxious expressions. They ask me about my situation, I can only say I'm okay when in my heart at the very moment I'm scared.But I don't want to show my fear to them . Because I think this problem is enough I just feel like it.

" Mommy really, don't you why - why? sifa said as she continued to hug me.

" It's really okay "

" Thank God" said my three friends together.

" Mommy has not eaten yet? ask Risya to me. .

I just shook my head to see that I haven't eaten. Because I really don't have the appetite to eat.

" Yaudah mami wait yah ..we three will make something for mami "

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It was getting late in the afternoon but my mind still remembered that person, whether what I should do was I should throw away my fear or I kept this fear. If you have to be honest, the events of eight years ago are still unfolding to this day.

The flasback

At that time I was only twelve years old, at that age when my thoughts and behavior were still unstable, not much different from me at that time even though my family is considered a religious family but not with my behavior that can be said badung aka naughty. But my naughty is still reasonable

not in the real bad sense. Naughty I mean I always go without parental permission out of the house by settling down like a thief. Both of my parents were already irritated by my behavior.

when I and my smp friends made a deal to go to the cafe, because it was trending at that time whose name was facebook and very rarely who had an Android phone forced me and my friends to go to the cafe. It was too fun to play until I forgot the time and it turned out to be very late afternoon. I told my friends to go home first .

" My friends go home first well, already this afternoon I could be hanged by my parents if I arrive at home kemalam." I said to friends

" It's not good" ...

" I'll be home tomorrow .bye ". .

" ye. ....

I rushed home just like I said ..if I came home all night I don't know what would happen to me. To shorten the time I finally cut the road to get home faster. There was no feeling or feeling when I went down that road, but suddenly someone pulled my hand and took me somewhere.

" You Who? where do I go. ..please. ..please. ..I scream for help but no one comes to help.

" You just shut up and come with me" replied the man

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" Wouldn't! !!! let's get off me.. I want to go home. ..hiks. .hiks...

" silence. ..!!!! if you still want to live better be quiet and follow me".

"After I saw it clearly it turned out to be my neighbor Irman whom I had considered my own brother, I can only bow down and cry until there is a feeling of regret for leaving without parental permission "If only I recited my parents maybe this accident would not happen " I said in my heart.

I was taken to an empty house.My feelings were more and more unbecoming .. My mouth was unrelenting - stop kamit kamit reading prayer may someone help.

"Sister .would you please let me go, I want to go home. .hiks. ..hiks ...

" I said shut up! !!!!

The man suddenly opened one by one his clothes that made me more frightened.So much energy I scream for help but in vain - no one helped me.

Slowly the man drew closer to me.My clothes he pulled until the front of my shirt was torn. ...

My words he didn't hear, the man's armpits were about to tweet*mu I ran to find a way out of there,

" Hi want to run where you're fast.." cried the man.

As strong as I ran but again I was caught, he pulled my body he overcame my body. .. I resigned my energy is almost exhausted.

But my armpits began to despair, as I tried to push the man's body at a glance I saw a stone beside my body ..

Bugh. ...

I beat the man to the ground, and immediately I ran. .run and run. .. sobs adorned that night.

Arriving in front of the house I went straight in. and it looks like the mother who was pacing back and forth maybe at that time Mother was very worried about me.

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" I ran and hugged my mother.....

" Where are you boys ? why just came home ? I told you I wanted to go out with mommy's permission first "

" I'm sorry mom.

Aware of my messed-up state, Mom panicked.

"Son what happened to you.Why did your shirt get torn ? let's tell the same dear Mother ?" . ...

" Mother ..I.....

:" It's why love ". ...

" I was almost raped ..hiks.

" What! !!!!

Mother was so very shocked, Mother immediately hugged me. ..while crying mother continued to calm me, when maybe at that time mother was also very scok. I was grateful at that time Father was not there .does not know what I will be like maybe I will run out at the beat of Father.

" Aisyah's mother promises to start now Aisyah will massage with mother, mother would you like to apologize Aisyah?" .

" Mom will always forgive you Aisha. .that is why Mother and Father always give you advice do not this. It must be it must be it. It is all you want for your good. .."

" Aisyah promise mother.from now on Aisyah will massage the mother " .

Since that incident.I became a quiet person, rarely get along even maybe out of the house if I want to school alone. Since the chase also I often had nightmares there is a feeling of fear if meeting the opposite sex on the road. ..my mind leads to continue the incident, the incident, For a year the trauma was on me as time went on to improve.

the flasback

"Mommy rest and take this medicine immediately." said Mery.

" Thank you, yeah....

After taking the medicine that Mery used, I tried to close my eyes .but it was difficult. .again the shadow of eight years and then danced in my mind.

" God please don't make me fall like eight years ago.... God help me.May I be at peace with the past "I said in my heart.